I knew that there have been a lot of changes that have been going on in the program for the past few days and while it did not come as a surprise, it was still a swift decision that had to be made. Initially, I was offered to lead the streamline and would have to take a 2-week leave before that. I thought, this is something I could take and it came perfectly to my almost-a-week vacation in Boracay. The following day, another update sprung and I could take the option of transferring to a different site and program.
I must admit, it was still difficult for me to decide. Part of me still wants to stay due to that so-called 'comfort zone' yet part of me wants to get out.
I've been with Polaris for 2 years and 5 months. I thought, that's already too long for me and learning new things outside is already needed. Admittedly, the decision was made within 24-hours and one of the factors that made me decide to leave is what has been going on for the past week.
That's just a small part of it. I guess, it was just a trigger to something that I wanted in the first place.
I hate to part with my team. My team in Polaris has been one of my most successful teams that I had in my career. Modesty aside, we were number 1 for Q4 2010, the team has been consistently in the upper half in the shift and in the program for months. However, it's time to move on. It's time to move forward.
With this decision, I had to give up my Boracay vacation. I thought, this should be happening now or else I might just miss another chance. Boracay will still be there and I can always go there next year. Of course, there's a regret, but my decision was final. Sad.
Earlier, I went to to the office to get my things. I don't know how to feel. It's almost a year when Polaris Shaw merged with Polaris Libis. Team Draco was the first team to transfer and ironically, after a year, the Dragon-Master is going back to where he came from.
This Friday is going to be my first training day. I don't know. I am excite, scared, anxious. I don't really know how to feel. I wanted this yet I am scared.
Someone said "good luck" to me.
I guess, I need a lot of it.
Please Lord, I have made few decisions in my life, one of which cost me a life. I hope and pray I just made the right decision.
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