I am writing this with a heavy heart.
I thought it's already getting better. It seemed like it's going to be a lot easier for me when the time comes that I would move out. I thought, acceptance of what is impossible is now in my reach. I was absolutely wrong.
You know when you're getting those glimmer of hope showing up unexpectedly? Like a sparkle that you did not know if it's true or just bogus, T the back of my mind, i am still hoping.
Once mighy be just a coincidence, twice, could never be the same.
It still hurts. That feeling when you just want to explode and get all the life out of it. I wanna cry.
I am crying. I smile and laugh if I could just to hide this melancholy, and I don't think anyone would understand.
Such a heavy heart that I have right now but when you strike your smile, it's like magic, everything will just fade away. It's like the sun has shine after a rainy day, or a glimmer of light in a pitch black scene.
I don't believe in fairy tales, but at this point I wish there is such a thing.
It's just so difficult not to express this.
Sasabog na ako. :(
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