I have a lot of things that are running through my head. I am trying to keep up with it to describe it in this writing. Before this, I was looking at some photos, and just the thought of it, I will be missing a lot of people.
I heard a quote from Champ, the former vocalist of Hale, when he was being interviewed in Myx. "I was heartbroken that time and so I did not decide on things just yet" or well at least something like that. Did I just decide on leaving because of this feeling and because I am heartbroken?
Two things:
- I am going to miss my team. I never expected to get so attached with this people since I have been handling teams before. I am not sure if they're going to miss me too, but I guess that's what it is. I think one of my reps' right, I understand why she is hesitant to join. I definitely do. I don't know, I might just break down or what, I am not sure. I'm going to miss those moments.
- Yes, I am going to miss Angel. You're the sole reason I am moving. The other reason is tolerable. I can't believe myself in succumbing to this decision. I have to admit, it's a hard decision to make. You know when you want to be with that person every second and everyday of your life, but you can't tell that person nor express what you feel. That sucks! I know, nobody's going to understand me. It's hard especially if you're not in the same situation. I am moving because I want to forget you, I'm hurting, but it's going to hurt as well, if I won't see you. I mean, I AM GOING TO MISS YOU. I really am. Sometimes, I am asking myself, did I make the right decision to move cause either way, I am still going to hurt myself.
I have to show I am okay, and that I am alright about the things that are bound to happen in the coming days, but they don't know what I am going through inside, the hurt and the pain. It's unexplainable.
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