Anytime

Someone asked how am I doing?

I still did not know how to answer that question. If I am being honest, no I am not okay. I've never been, since God-knows-when. I may be smiling more now, I may be joking around more, but those stances were all masks and would-be masks for I don't know until when.

The thing is, do I ever cross your mind?

A question that has started to linger in me.

I just woke up an hour earlier, got my phone, and read some emails. It's a good thing they're still remembering me. While I am not that expressive, I still appreciate those people who, in spite of the lack of time to see and meet each other, still have the ability to reach to you and say their "Hi's" and "Hellos".

Until now, I am still disappointed. Yeah, expectations, I know. All those quotes and sayings have been useless to me. I guess. those are things that my mind has been asking me to do; and while I understand it; my heart still lingers to that fact that I miss my angel, so badly, that I just want to die. I want to do the first move, email or text that person and all, but I am afraid that I am just going to feel rejected. Yeah, the pain of being rejected is not even in me. What a feeling that would be. It's unimaginable.

I admire those people who can easily say "I miss you", I don't know, I guess, I am really not that expressive.

Ahhh, I am just miserable. I guess I am just so good in faking the smiles through joking around, but behind it, my heart and soul have been restless. I am already tired.

I can't remember why we fell apart
From something that was so meant to be, yeah
Forever was the promise in our hearts
Now, more and more I wonder where you are
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Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind anytime
I miss you
Still have your picture in a frame
Hear your footsteps down the hall
I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane
How I wish that you would call
To say
[Chorus]
I miss you
I miss you
(No more) loneliness and heartache
(No more) crying myself to sleep
(Don't want no more) wondering about tomorrow
Won't you come back to me
Come back to me, oh
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

When words fail, music speaks