So Near Yet So Far

Suddenly you realize everything has changed. November's promises were not that sweet compared to last year. It's bitter and it is not something you'd like to remember.

I have all these questions in my mind that I wish I could ask you. It's been crippling my focus and breaking my thoughts everytime I think about what has happened with us. 

I know though that when i asks you this question you would only deny it, but wha I feel is totally different than what you are trying to make me feel. 

Cold. 

I don't feel you. It's like you're so close yet I can't feel you. It's like you're the moon yet I can just get a glimpse of you every now and then. What else shall I know to justify this ill feeling. 

Did I do somethig wrong for you to make me feel this way? What have I done wrong? What have I made you be totally different than before. You're acting like stranger and I don't even know you now.

I could only hope to make things better. I haven't decided to slip away and be gone through forever. Not yet, not now, not in the nearest future. I still like to have the old us. 

I still want to create more memories with you. I don't want to end this yet. Even if it hurts too much, I can get through all this, just to make all the same.