Survive

I thought I've faced the most difficult trial in my life. I thought nothing could surpass my previous ordeals. They're all nothing compared to this and I am not sure how can I get pass to this.

I am bleeding and I am not sure how to stop this heart from feeling the pain. Excruciating. Intangible. Hard. 

I am so alone in this battle and that is making it so hard. I am already thinking of some absurd things but I am still sane enough to consider it.

Lord I'm in pain and I don't know until when I could survive this. The people whom I thought I could depend on in these trying times have turned their back and not everyone can understand what I am going through right now.

Please give me enough strength to overcome this ordeal. I don't want to give up because I am not sureIf I can survive it. 

Devastated. Melancholy. 😔🙏