We meet again. I guess this is one of the few times that I'd be posting such story. I told you many stories about love and happiness before and now, I am not even sure how to describe what I am feeling.
Sadness.
Perhaps.
I guess we're gonna meet more often now. I am not even sure whom I could tell what I am feeling. It's sad.
I could not even gather my thoughts to scribble what happened yesterday. I made a decision that I felt I am being condemned at.
I just wanna vent out. Otherwise, I'm gonna explode.
I appreciate the honesty. You just really know where to hit me and what would make me crumble.
I guess, even if it you've prepared yourself for the time that angel would be leaving anytime soon, it's not enough.
The thought still kills me. It's like a dagger that is lacerating my soul and my heart. Worse, I can't do anything.
Who am I? I'm just one of the guys.
I get it that my reason for all of these things was because of that stupid email.
I understand everything now, but i just wish you understand how difficult for me to let go of what i was feeling, just like that. For the first time, I had to fight the want to see angel.
I did not know that it's gonna be the last. I did not know that you are leaving. I did not know about everything. Had I known that, it could have been a different story.
Probably I'd be told that it doesn't matter had i known it. I was given the chance to be happy and I blew it.
Yes.
I blew it.
You've probably gonna tell me that it's my choice and my decision to feel that way.
Perhaps you're right. The same way that it's also your decision to feel that way with the 'others'.
Maybe I couldn't understand you.
You probably won't understand me too.
I'm not mad or anything.
I'm just...
Sad and felt like I was alone.
Abandoned.
I guess I deserve this.
Stranger.
:(
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