Love Is A Decision

"When does love end?", I asked myself.

Is it really possible for this not to end?

Is there such a thing as not being able to move on?

Is there something that I could do to put an end on this?

I know there are clear signs that I should really give up. It's glaring to say the least but why am I still continuing to hope.

Hope, that the person you love the most would find it in the heart that I am worth loving.

At the end of the day, the question if it's still worth all the pain is still lingering. The excruciating pain everytime that you are with the person you love, talking, smiling with each other yet you can't tell that person how much you love ad adore.

It's painful when all you can do is smile and hide all the pain you feel because you see that there's no possibility.

Yet you are still at it. You continue to hope, smile, and be with that person even if it means the pain is gaining grounds.

I guess, I found the answer today

Love is really a decision.

You decide that amidst all the pain that you feel, even if you know that moving on would be better by letting go, you still decide to be with that person.

Because above all the pain you suffer, there's this absolute happiness you feel that washes away all the pain, and it's not even parallel to what the pain is causing you.

That above all the tears you've shed, there's this unexplainable feeling you have everytime you are with the most important person in your life. That happiness you feel because you know that person is happy.

Is this all worth it?

The pain, the tears, the suffering.

YES.

I still decide to love you.

I love the person so much that pain is nothing compared to the happiness I feel when I'm with you.

Until when?

I don't know.

All i know is that when I looked into your eyes earlier, I realized that I still could not live without this person.

This time I wish that Forever isn't really true, cause if it is, then I'd be forever be in love with this person.

This Saturday is not just one of those ordinary Saturdays.

It's extraordinary because I'm with you.

I'm sorry if I've hurt you in whatever way.
You should know that I won't do a thing to hurt you. You just don't how I was hurt when I learned that you were offended and hurt.

I love you Angel.

Thank you for making me happy again even if you don't know.