I Miss You and Everything That Comes Along

Last night, I just realized how huge the change was. It is never going to be the same again. How I miss the time when we can schedule a movie date; or just a short merienda time; or have lunch together. I miss those times. Sadly, I am not sure if you are also missing those times too. Maybe I am just getting a little too melodramatic again. Kill me now yet I cannot deny the fact that I miss those times.

While i have the chance to see you and have a glimpse of you every now and then, it makes me want more. It makes it more glaring and showing the fact that it's going to be different and difficult for all of us. I know it is not right but i have been longing to have a long conversation with you again. Be with you again and talk anything under the sun. I don't care if we are going to run out of topics to discuss. I don't care if we're just going to stare at each other the whole time or you just sleep in front of me. I just wanna be with you again.

It makes me look like a pathetic human being. I am not sure if you are also missing those times because you seem to have a way of not showing it to people. Is it? Or it's the fact that you don't really care at all?

Why do I care so much about you?

Even caring more than I should for myself and my well being. I am looking at myself as a pathetic human being trying to get some attention from you.

Why do I care so much? I love you more than I love myself. I love you so much and I can't do anything about it. You see, that's the worst part of it all. I can't do anything with what I feel and I feel so stupid.

T____T