Christmas Time

When will I be excited for Christmas again? While others are doing their countdowns, it seems like for me, it's  a season of commercialized giving of gifts and all that, just to say that you're part of the celebration. It's like you're being obliged because you're part of this world where everyone celebrates this season and you just have to do it. 

The reason my Christmas last year was memorable is still here, but for some odd reason, a lot has changed between now and back then. I am not even sure if something is cooking up to make this year's yuletide season a memorable one. 

 Is it too late to wish to have a happy and merry christmas this year? Is there really a reason for me to celebrate this season? They say it's a choice to be happy. You know when you're in this situation, it's going to be easier said than done, and to say that it's easy is not really true. Who would want to be lonely when everybody seems to have a reason to be happy.

It's just too sad to be alone and lonely. :(